3:00 a.m.-8 November-99

There is no soul awake in my sight

It is three hours past mid-night

It is dark very dark

There is hardly any light

The train is moving fast

It’s cold

As cold as your blood

This darkness reminds me of that night

Twenty-seventh of Jan.

Eight p.m. around

Second floor of our college

Corridor

Alone

Others were in lecture hall

Practicing for our seminar

I was the only one along the entire parapet

With a just-broken heart

Trying to prevent my eye lashes from getting wet

Couldn’t

With my hands on those cold stones

And my eyes lost in darkness

What a night!

You should have been there

You should have seen me

My eyes

What a moment

I lived it

Wow…

Crying for someone

For the first time

FOR SOMEONE

You

Yeah…you

What a thing

Love…you’ll never know hat it is

Love

LOVE

What a word

What a thing

And you…

So bad

Never mind

I am not worth it

Don’t love me

But

Okay…no more buts

And…

Excuse me please

There is some one knocking

At my cabin’s door

Yeah I am back

It was the railway personnel

Asking, if I wanted a pillow

I refused

I’m not going to sleep

And I needn’t tell you the reason

So…

What was I talking?

Yes, right

I was describing that fateful night

Forget that

Let me look outside the window

Wow

That star

So bright

So beautiful

Almost as good as you

And nothing else besides darkness

And thoughts

Dumb thoughts