9:00 p.m.-3 March-99

God

I’m tired of wishing good for myself

For not a single wish came true

So here I am

Asking you to give me something

that You've bestowed upon me

Even without my asking for it

Give me mountains of sorrow

And when she is sad

Just pass on the grief to me

But please God

Don’t ever make her cry

Give me that lonely desert

I’ll stay there anyway

But please God

Don’t deny her wish

To play in that garden of yours

Give me a thorn

And thorns if you please

But please God

Don’t say ‘no’

When she asks for a rose

Make the world my foe

I’ll handle it

But please God

Give her hands of a friend

When she is in need

Make all my wishes crash

Except this poem

But please God

Make her every wish come true

And one more small request

When you give all this to her

Please please God

Don’t tell her that it was I

For she might feel bad.